Shame

It was the early 1990’s. I would have been in my mid 20’s back then. The church I was attending at the time hosted a one-day Women’s Retreat held at a hotel in Concord, California. I don’t remember who the special speaker was. I just remember the deep work of healing that the Holy Spirit was doing in the lives of the women present.

The Holy Spirit swept through the place, and women were weeping and wailing. Women of all ages. Married and single women. God was doing a deep Sovereign work.

Towards the end of the speaker’s message, the Lord began to prophetically speak through her that so many of the women in that room were wearing, as if it were, a black veil of mourning and shame. God wanted to remove that veil and replace it with a crown of beauty. He wanted to lift off the shame and reproach in our lives and give us a beautiful bridal veil to wear, since He is our bridegroom and we are His bride.

Women were carrying around shame, rejection and mourning for various reasons. For some, it was because of past or present abuse. For others, it was the broken heart of a failed marriage or having been widowed. For some, past immorality. For several single women, including myself, the feelings of being alone, feeling forgotten by God, rejection by men and living with the “stigma” of singleness because society says that we should be married or have a boyfriend, and the grief and despair and bitterness of soul over having empty arms (no husband meant no babies).

For a few women who were married and having a difficult time conceiving a child, or had frequent miscarriages, they were in utter despair and grief. The pain of having empty arms was almost too much for them to bear especially when their friends were having babies. Almost every woman there felt ashamed, for one reason or another, about her appearance or body image. Even the ones who seemed to be so beautiful were ashamed about certain things in their appearance. There were so many reasons why the women in that place felt shame, rejection and mourning.

The Lord was doing such a deep work of healing that day, tenderly holding us in His arms and whispering so gently, “I love you, you are my beautiful bride, I will give you the oil of joy for mourning and the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness. I will give you beauty for ashes. I am your glory and the lifter of your head. I want to heal you and set you free. Those who look to Me are radiant and their faces are never covered in shame. I am the lover of your soul. I will never abandon you. I will never fail you. I long to share sweet intimacy with you, My bride. I want to romance you, dance with you, validate you. Only I can meet all of your needs. Would you give Me permission to come into those secret chambers of your heart and cleanse the deep wounds? Would you allow Me to heal the memories? I am the Lord your healer. You are so beautiful to me, My precious jewel. Would you allow Me complete access to your heart?”

What is shame?

In the Bible, there are many words translated as shame. The Hebrew and Greek defines shame as:

  • To pale, to blush
  • Humiliation
  • Confusion, to be confounded
  • Dishonored or not honored
  • Reproach
  • Disgrace
  • Depised, Contempt
  • Lightly Esteem
  • Maltreat
  • To wound, to taunt, to insult
  • To expose, to defame, to rail
  • Disappointment and delay
  • To become dry

Notice that the last two definitions deal with disappointment, delay and being dry (parched). Shame leaves a sense of desolation to the soul. (Hope deferred also leads to feeling stripped dry.) Shame causes emotional barrenness. The Lord wants to transform the ruins in your life into an Eden. He wants to turn the wilderness into a land that is lush and green with pools of refreshing water.

Shame is like a garment. The Lord wants to do a Divine exchange, and give us a garment of righteousness and beauty to wear if we will give Him our garment of shame. When you are ashamed, you feel bad about yourself and want to hide. Shame can become a lifestyle, where you always want to hide, or put up a facade so people don’t see the real you. The Lord says, “The walls you have built to protect yourself are not only keeping everyone else out, but also keeping Me out as well. Would you give Me permission to get close to you without you pushing Me away, keeping Me at a distance? Would You allow Me to go into every room of your heart?”

The Lord wants to remove that black veil of mourning, and crown our head with a white bridal veil instead. He wants us to hold our heads high knowing who we are in Christ. Our identity and validation comes from Him and who He says we are. He says that we are kings and priests. He says that we are His beautiful and radiant bride. He says that we are complete in Him.

Whatever has happened in the past, whatever mistakes you have made, whatever injustices happened to you … it’s over with and done. The Lord is doing a new thing. Now it springs forth. Your past does not determine your destiny. God promises to give us a double portion recompense for what we went through.

Isaiah 61:7-8 says, “Instead of your [former] shame you shall have a twofold recompense; instead of dishonor and reproach [your people] shall rejoice in their portion. Therefore in their land they shall possess double [what they had forfeited]; everlasting joy shall be theirs. For I the Lord love justice.”

The Lord loves justice (fairness, equity). Whatever we went through in life that was unfair, the Lord wants to make it up to us in some way.

Isaiah 54:4-5 AMP

Fear not, for you shall not be ashamed; neither be confounded and depressed, for you shall not be put to shame. For you shall forget the shame of your youth, and you shall not [seriously] remember the reproach of your widowhood any more. For your Maker is your Husband — the Lord of hosts is His name — and the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; the God of the whole earth He is called.

Psalms 34:4-5 AMP

I sought (inquired of) the Lord and required Him [of necessity and on the authority of His Word], and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears. They looked to Him and were radiant; their faces shall never blush for shame or be confused.

Isaiah 60:1 AMP

Arise [from the depression and prostration in which circumstances have kept you — rise to a new life]! Shine (be radiant with the glory of the Lord), for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you!

Blood of Jesus: What the Bible Says About It

The Blood of Jesus is so powerful!

Salvation in the Blood – John 3:16-17; Hebrews 9:28

Eternal Life in the Blood – John 6:54

Resurrection power in the Blood – 1 Thessalonians 4:14

Deliverance in the Blood – Psalms 32:7

Healing and Health (physical, emotional and mental) in the Blood – Isaiah 53:5; 1 Corinthians 11:23-32

Preservation of life in the Blood – Exodus 12:13

Safety and protection in the Blood – Exodus 12:13; Psalms 91

Atonement in the Blood – Romans 5:11

Forgiveness of sins by the Blood – Ephesians 1:7; Colossians 1:14

Cleansing from sin by the Blood – 1 John 1:7

Washed by the Blood – Revelation 1:5

Remission of sin by the shedding of Blood – Hebrews 9:22

Abundant life by the Blood – John 6:53, 10:10

Covered by the Blood – Exodus 12:13

Plagues abated by the Blood – Exodus 12:13

Death averted by the Blood – Exodus 12:13

Purged conscience by the Blood – Hebrews 9:13-14

Freedom in the Blood – John 8:36

Witchcraft broken by the Blood – Galations 5:19-21

Demons have a meltdown and flee because of the Blood – James 2:19

Devil is destroyed because of the Blood – Hebrews 2:14

Fear broken by the Blood – 2 Timothy 1:7

Curses broken by the Blood – Deuteronomy 23:5

Cut covenant by the shedding of Blood – Genesis 15

Reconciliation by the Blood – Colossians 1:20

Debts cancelled by the Blood – Matthew 6:12

Provision by the Blood – Matthew 6:31-33; Philippians 4:19

Made whole by the Blood – Matthew 9:12; Mark 5:34

Peace by the Blood – Colossians 1:20

Jews and Gentiles reconciled by the Blood of Christ – Ephesians 2:14

Power in the Blood to save, set free, heal and deliver – Isaiah 53:5; 61

Chains and fetters are broken by the Blood – Psalms 107:14; John 8:36

Purged and purified by the Blood – Hebrews 9:22

Restoration by the Blood – Jeremiah 30:17; Joel 2:25

Redeemed by the Blood – Ephesians 1:7; Colossians 1:14; Revelation 5:9

Eternal Redemption by His Blood – Hebrews 9:12

Sanctified by the Blood – Hebrews 13:12

Propitiation through faith in His Blood – Romans 3:25

Justified by His Blood – Romans 5:9

Guilt is removed because of the Blood – Hebrews 10:22 (NIV)

Addictions are broken by His Blood – John 8:36

Made nigh by the Blood – Ephesians 2:13

Communion of the Blood of Christ (Holy Eucharist) – 1 Corinthians 10:16

Evil is overcome by the Blood – John 1:29

Satan is under your feet because of the Blood – Romans 16:20 (NIV)

Darkness is turned into light by the Blood – Psalms 107:14, 112:4; Isaiah 60

Generational curses and sins are broken by the Blood of Jesus – Exodus 34:7, Exodus 20:6; Galations 3:13

We can enter boldly into the Holiest of All by the Blood of Jesus – Hebrews 10:19

The Blood of the Everlasting Covenant – Hebrews 13:20

Transforming power in the Blood – 2 Corinthians 5:17

Our robes are made white in the Blood of Jesus – Revelation 7:14

We overcome by the Blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony – Revelation 12:11

About Faith #321-330

#321 The same faith that removes mountains moves us to obey God. You cannot be disobedient to God or the Word of God and have working faith.

#322 Vision is when you see it and others don’t. Faith is when you do it and others won’t. With vision and faith things can be done. Luci Swindoll

#323 The only word Satan respects is the Word of God when it is spoken and acted on. He is defeated and bound in chains by the authority of the Word of God. Jesus replied to the devil, “It is written …”

#324 God is eagerly waiting for the chance to answer your prayers and fulfill your dreams, just as He always has. But He can’t if you don’t pray, and He can’t if you don’t dream. In short, He can’t if you don’t believe.

#325 Set the tone for each day by speaking words of faith over your future.

#326 Jesus said in John 10:10, “I came that they may have and enjoy life, and have it in abundance (to the full, till it overflows).

#327 The beloved Apostle John said in 3 John 2, “Beloved, I wish above all things that you may prosper and be in health, even as your soul prospers.” Your health and financial prosperity greatly depend on the condition of the prosperity of your soul (mind, will, emotions and traditions).

#328 ASK. “Ask and it shall be given unto you.” The first step of faith is to ask God for what you want or need. You have not because you ask not (James 4:2).

#329 The mouth speaks what the heart is full of. If it’s full of faith, it will speak faith and words of life. If it’s full of hate, evil, fear or doubt, it will speak complaints, negative things and evil abusive words.

#330 God doesn’t ask you to figure it all out. He just asks you to believe.

About Faith #177-193

About Faith #177-193

#177 You have to have the seed of the Word planted deep in your heart, because Satan will come to steal the Word (Mark 4:4-20).

#178 We will encounter opposition from the devil when we stand in faith; resist him, and he will flee (James 4:7).

#179 You have to spend time with the Lord every day to have total victory in your life.

#180 Offense will hinder your faith and keep you from receiving all God wants to do in your life.

#181 There will be giants (problems, obstacles) in the promised land, but faith will overcome every giant.

#182 Faith has to be implemented (applied, executed, put into action, put into effect).

#183 We implement what we want to come to pass with our words, backed up by faith.

#184 Our words reveal what is in our heart, whether good or evil. Out of the abundance (overflow) of the heart the mouth speaks (Luke 6:44-45).

#185 It takes effort to speak in agreement with what the Word says because we live in a negative world. It’s like swimming upstream.

#186 It’s possible to say the right things but have doubt in your heart. Faith has to be in your heart, and if it is, then the things coming out of your mouth will be faith-filled.

#187 Jesus said that if we do not doubt in our heart, but believe that those things which we say shall come to pass, we shall have whatever we ask (Mark 11:23).

#188 Every sickness and disease are under the curse of the law (Deuteronomy 28), and we were redeemed from the curse (Galations 3:13). Healing is for us.

#189 Some healings manifest instantly, while other healings take a while. That’s why we need faith and patience working together.

#190 Keep on confessing healing Scriptures over your body until the healing manifests. Visualize yourself as being healed.

#191 A double-minded man who wavers between faith and doubt cannot expect to receive anything from the Lord (James 1:6-8).

#192 One way of drawing back is to be in faith for a while, but when it takes too long, saying “this faith isn’t working” and give up.

#193 Abraham and Sarah waited in faith for the promise of a son for 25 years before it came to pass. God is faithful to fulfill His promises.

About Faith #106-117

About Faith #106-117

#106 The evidence of doubt can always be seen. It’s never a spiritual thing. Always doubt your doubts. Jesse Duplantis

#107 If faith brought healing, miracles and broke down walls in the Old Testament, then how much more will faith do under the New Covenant.

#108 Don’t yield to strife, confusion, murmuring, complaining, as these are faith killers.

#109 Sin hinders. We can’t be strong in faith and strong in power, and live in sin at the same time.

#110 If you hold on to unforgiveness, it will hinder your faith (Mark 11:22-26).

#111 If it seems like your faith is not working, you need to evaluate what you’re saying. Are you speaking doubt or the answer?

#112 When you speak faith-filled words, faith takes hold of the answer, and patience keeps the answer.

#113 Fight the good fight of faith—don’t quit, lay down, give in or give up.

#114 Do not cast away your confidence when under pressure. Your confidence has great recompense of reward (Hebrews 10:35).

#115 Hope is focused on the future, whereas faith is right now. You need hope before you can have faith.

#116 It’s one thing to hope for the answer (hope is good), but another thing to believe that you receive the answer right now.

#117 Faith first believes that it receives (Mark 11:24), then speaks, then takes appropriate action, then eventually the answer manifests.

 

Pt 15 – How You Can Be Led by the Spirit of God

Pt 15 – How You Can Be Led by the Spirit of God

Study on Book Entitled “How You Can Be Led by the Spirit of God”, by Kenneth E. Hagin, Sr.

CHAPTER 15

Key Scripture:

“For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass, he shall have whatsoever he saith. Therefore, I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them” (Mark 11:23-24).

Your spirit knows things that your head does not know, because the Holy Spirit is in your spirit.

When medical science gave Kenneth Hagin up to die when he was a teenager and said they could do nothing further for him, he knew somehow that if there was help for him anywhere, it would be in the Bible.

He started with the New Testament because he knew he didn’t have much time. Eventually he came to Mark 11:23-24.

When he came to Mark 11:24, something from outside of him somewhere said to his mind, “That doesn’t mean what things soever ye desire physically, or materially, or financially. That just means whatsoever things ye desire spiritually. Healing has been done away with.”

He tried to get his pastor to come and tell him what Mark 11:24 did mean. The pastor did not come. One preacher finally did come. He patted Kenneth Hagin’s hand, put on a professional voice, and said, “Just be patient my boy. In a few more days it will all be over.”

Kenneth Hagin accepted that verdict and lay there in bed expecting to die. It was two months before he got back into the Bible and back to Mark 11:23-24.

Kenneth Hagin said, “Lord, I tried to get someone to help me and I couldn’t. So I am going to tell You what I am going to do. I am just going to take You at Your Word. When You were here on earth, You said it. I am going to believe it. If You didn’t lie about it, I am coming off this bed, because I can believe what You said I can believe.”

Then he hit on this idea. (It took him a long time because he had limited use of his hands. They propped the Bible in front of him and he just sort of “scooted” the pages.) He decided to run a reference on faith and healing. He came to James 5:14-15:

14 Is any sick among you? Let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the Name of the Lord.

15 And the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up; and if he have committed sins, they shall be forgiven him.

Kenneth Hagin thought that all of the rest of the healing Scriptures and prayer promises hinged on that—he thought he HAD to call for the elders of the church. (You don’t have to—you just can if you need to.) So he began to cry, “Dear Lord, if I have to call for the elders of the church to anoint me with oil to be healed, then I can’t be healed. I don’t know any elders of the church that believe in that.”

He had been saved for six months, and had never heard an inward voice. He is not talking about the Voice of the Spirit of God, as that is more authoritative. He is talking about that still small voice of his spirit.

His spirit said to him, “Did you notice that verse said that the prayer of faith shall save the sick?”

He had to look again. He had his mind on the elders and had missed that. “Yes” he said aloud, “that is what it says.” It came as a real shock to him.

Then on the inside of him these words were spoken, “You can pray that prayer as well as anyone can.” Hallelujah!

But his spiritual education was slow—just like yours. He stayed in that bed for nine more months before he finally saw that he had to believe he received his healing before it would be manifested.

It was while he was praying and saying, “I believe that I receive my healing,” that he saw what he must do. He said, “I believe that I receive my healing from the top of my head to the soles of my feet.” Then he began to praise God because he believed that he received his healing.

Again, on the inside of him, he heard these words. This was not that authoritative voice, but just a still small voice, so faint he would not have heard it if his mind and body had been very active—“Now you believe that you are well.”

He said, “I sure do.”

That inward voice said, “Get up then. Well people ought to be up at 10:30 in the morning.”

He had been paralyzed. It was a struggle. He pushed himself. Finally, he got up to where he was draped over the bedpost. His knees sagged down not far from the floor. He had no feeling from his waist down. But draped over that bedpost, he said it again: “I want to announce in the Presence of Almighty God, the Lord Jesus Christ, the Holy Spirit, and the holy angels present in this room, and I want to call the devil to record and all evil spirits that may be present in this room, that according to Mark 11:24, I believe I receive my healing.”

When he said that, physically, he felt something. It felt like someone above him was pouring a pitcher of honey on him. He felt it strike him on the top of his head. It seemed to pile up like honey would, and then it began to ooze down over him. It had a warm glow to it. It spread down over his head, down his neck and shoulders, down his arms and out the ends of his fingers, and down his body and out the ends of his toes.

All of a sudden he was standing straight! He has been straight ever since.

He listened to his spirit. Faith is of the spirit. Your faith will not work to its fullest until you learn some of these things. Learn to depend on Him—the One who is in you. Learn to develop your own spirit. Have faith in the fact that your faith in God works.